Lub Dub Love: A YA sapphic romance by Blanche Maze

Lub Dub Love: A YA sapphic romance by Blanche Maze

Author:Blanche Maze [Maze, Blanche]
Language: eng
Format: epub, mobi
Published: 2022-11-29T23:00:00+00:00


29

Flynn

Days pass and nothing happens. Not much happens at least, because of course, school is pretty different.

It’s not perfect. I’m not welcomed there like a hero now, and it’s for the best, because attention—no matter the motive—is not for me. I’d rather stay unnoticed… But I think people don’t look at me with that same look of pity anymore. No, now they look at me with some sort of respect, and that feels amazing.

I haven’t run into Ben because he’s still suspended, but I expect he’ll come back soon. It’s only a matter of time and I don’t know if I’m eager or scared about such an encounter. Even though I stood up to him, he still hit me pretty bad. And I doubt he’s the type of guy to reassess his behavior because he’s been suspended twice now. Last time didn’t change a thing and my hopes aren’t high for when he does come back.

Not everything changed though. I’m still terrified to answer a question in front of the entire class and the rumor of my exploits undoubtedly brought a most unwelcome spotlight on me. Social anxiety is creeping up on me despite the work I do with my therapist and I really wish I had Aelia’s carefreeness in me, her ability to do her thing no matter what happens around her.

But I don’t. I’m not Aelia.

Speaking of her, we still text. Everyday, sometimes just a few messages a day and other times we have long and fascinating conversations. I wonder what happened when she got home the other day. When I asked about it, she evaded the question easily. Which leads me to think that I didn’t go that well.

I wanted to invite her over, now that I know she can come outside—even if apparently she’s not allowed to. I thought it would be cool to hang out, but I don’t want to pressure her or anything. Besides, if things didn’t go all that well with her mother, it’s probably best if she lies low for a while.

Still, I can’t help but miss her for some reason. Especially after the talk with my mother. What she insinuated… It’s true that I’ve been way better since I met Aelia. I’m not sure if it really has anything to do with her, but the fact is there. I’ve been feeling more like myself and finally stepping up and taking matter into my own hands.

I might be getting a little ahead of myself there… I did stand up to Ben, but it was only this one time. Am I even certain that I would do it again if it came to that? I could easily fall back into my old habits and just cower away in my corner again.

I don’t want to. I really don’t. I want—no, I need—to believe that this new version of myself is the real me. It has to be. Otherwise, I’m just another awkward, weird, lonely girl.

And I refuse to be that.

Joe says that he likes this new side of me.



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